Today is Raven's second day at the High School, she put the cyber school behind her. They were very nice and helpful but she feels the need for people and friends. I understand how she feels. It is hard to go through life with all that happens to us with little or no friends to support us. Human contact is so needful, so powerful. Without those hugs, sympathetic touches, loving caresses, we go insane. I totally understand her need for those things. She gets them from me and from her sister but it isn't the same as a friend. She did well her first day and walked from school to my work. It was super cold out today and she walked to school. She texted saying she got there ok. I'm already feeling the separation. I know she needs her own life but its hard to let her do it. She has been such a big and intrical part of my life its hard to let her move on. I have Lila but its not the same, Raven has truly seen me at my worst. Lila has never.
Anyways, enough of that. I sold two items on ebay, waiting payment for a third but it looks like I might not get it. Maybe after winning the bid they didn't like the shipping cost but fuck them. what am I supposed to do, eat the shipping cost?? Yeah right. I started my cinnamon/ honey water to lose weight again. We shall see if it works. I have a new tracking method for my income for the new year. I have eight ptc sites I click on, two selling sites (only one has anything on it), two adsense spots, and my book sales. You'd think Im rolling in it, but its not making alot right now. I have a full time job and another direct sales I will be starting before end of February. It sounds like a full plate but I still find alot of time that I just sit around looking for something to do. My click sites only take an hour, my two adsense sites pretty much run themselves unless Im uploading or writing, my book sales just sits there cause I don't advertise, I haven't started my direct sales, and my two selling sites just sit there unless Im adding new product. So its really not alot of work each day. I find alot of time where Im bored stiff. Not much going on around here other than that. I did upload another class to my school blog and deleted all the ptc sites I don't use anymore off my marketing blog. If you wanna check those out its in the side bar.
Oh, and Raven and I are collaborating on a charity we are going to create. I'll tell you more when I got it up. Its a great idea and will help turn something bad into something good. Oh, and the man who hurt Raven has taken a plea. 4-11 yrs and 5 on probation. He wont be sentenced until end of April. But at least Raven won't have to testify. Saturday I will be able to file my taxes and hopefully only a few weeks for my taxes. Im sick of walking in the cold and pulling carts through the snow for groceries and laundry. It will be nice to have a vehicle. Im getting a truck. There is a nice truck on autotrader at a dealership about 40 miles from me for a good price and already has a topper which I will need in the long run. With any luck it will still be available in a few weeks when I actually get my taxes back or a better choice will be available. I don't have to rush so I can be picky. I like it when I can be picky cause it doesn't happen alot. I usually buy stuff from need so I get whats available instead of looking around and buying something I want. Well, Im getting off for now, as always dont forget to donate by using the donate button on the top right. It goes to buying a home for my family for the first time and starting our charity. .
Thursday, January 30, 2014
Thursday, January 16, 2014
16 January 2014
It has been a long time since I wrote anything, and that is true for my personal stories also. I haven't wrote a word in four months. Tragedy struck me on September 20th, 2013. My family was ripped apart. I have talked to almost noone since then. I found out someone was hurting my teenage daughter in that way only women can be hurt, and it was someone I trusted and have trusted for ten years. Everyone talks about the abused and help them through it. I don't minimize what my daughter went through but noone ever talks about what the family of the abused goes through. As the mother of an abused daughter, my heart is ripped. Ripped because I failed to protect my daughter from predators. I failed to see what was happening to her. When she told me what had been happening to her I went into shock. I couldn't even tell the police where I lived or why I was in their precinct. Those first few days, my daughter was doing better than I. One of my long trusted friends flew up to be with us for the weekend and her help was invaluable. I can't even image being in that apartment those first few days by myself. I wasn't ready for her to leave but I had to let her go. It is hard to not talk and to talk about it, at the same time. Half the time I feel like I am walking around someone else's life and the other half I feel fine. Emotions have settled a bit but not fully. My daughter is feeling worse than she did the first few days. She isn't sleeping in her room, she wont even go in there unless she has no choice. I have avoided writing about it on my blog, for several reasons. But that has caused writers block. Since I can't get out what I want to say, I can't say anything. Anyone who actually knows me, please don't ask me about what happened, or who it was, or even wonder. Just know we are hurting so much, and so much more than it looks. The only important thing now is how we feel today, not what was done to us yesterday. The person who did it is in jail and can't hurt anyone else, he didn't hurt anyone else. Just us. He changed us, all of us. I will never trust another person, I will never allow anyone new into my life. The ones already in my life I will always have a small voice in the back of my head saying "they could do it too". It took me years to silence that voice when my father betrayed me. Now its back and I doubt I will be able to make it go away. Whenever you look at me all you see is my mask. The mask I now show everyone because I will never trust again. I have no more room in my heart for wounds or scars. I have no more room in my chest for my heart to grow. If you see me I will smile and say 'HI". I will not give you any indication that I am wounded beyond repair. If I seem a bit strange, or different, now you know why. I do not want to discuss it, I do not want your sympathy. I do not need your help. This is not something anyone can help us with. Each of us will have to work through the pain and betrayal ourselves the best way we can. The only way anyone can help is just be normal. To allow us to wear our masks, let us protect our hearts in the only way we know how until we feel strong enough to face it again. After ten years of one way we all need to learn another way. We have to make a new normal and it isn't easy. We have big bumps and skids. Meltdowns and breakdowns. Periods of low and high. This blog is where I get out what I feel without feeling like I am gonna have a bunch of comments from those I know. Most who read this blog I do not know personally and I kinda like it that way. Its almost anonymous in a way. There is a freedom in unleashing on a stranger. They have no preconceived judgements on how you are expected to handle a given situation. Or what you should allow them to do for you. Sometimes telling friends or family is a burden. I am really lucky to have a few friends that I can say anything to. They have been with me through a bunch of shit and I am sure they will be there through a bunch more. I am glad I have them even if they are 1200 miles away. Maybe after I write this I can start writing on my book again. It is suffering by me being absent for 4 months. I feel like an empty shell. I feel dead inside. Like I am only going through the motions. But I have been here before. I know what is happening this time. Part of me has been locked away because Im not ready to deal with it. This kind of betrayal is severe and deep. Especially since I already have a gaping wound from what my father did. I started smoking again and im not sure I can stop. I can't sleep and feel tired at the same time, im hungry and don't wanna eat. I wanna go out and stay home at the same time. My thoughts, feelings, and desires are all jumbled. I don't have any priorities straight, I'm doing anything that occurs to me to do at any given moment. I can't think out what I should do next and easily get confused when I have to concentrate on more than one thing at a time. I'm not sure how long this will last, the last time took years but I was also being hurt over and over for years. At least this time all the hurt was in one day, one moment. And how do I help my daughter move on, how can I help her be normal, develop normal relationships. She has never experienced a normal relationship with a boy. I'm afraid in this case, her first boyfriend will have a bunch on his hands to fix. I hope he is patient and understanding, like most teenage boys are not. The wrong boyfriend will mess her up more. She is strong but I would rather her strength not be tested. She doesn't need my life. Ive spent too much time writing and need to get off here. I will be back, and as always hit the donate button to help me buy a home for me and my girls. Thanks.
Wednesday, September 18, 2013
Poor is
Poor is....
Walking around with holey shoes so your kids can eat.
Approved for the free meals program at school.
Feeling sick and still going to work cause you have to.
Walking an hour and a half home cause you can't afford the bus.
Scrounging the sidewalk for change to afford a dollar burger.
Your kids scrounging for change to buy candy.
Dumpster diving.
Qualify for food stamps and still not eating healthy.
Washing your clothes in the bathtub.
No joining the band at school.
No qualified after school care for you kids.
Online work for pennies to afford extras.
Nothing to bring to family functions.
Stocking up at leftover take homes during family holiday functions.
Getting suckered at scams cause you are desperate for money.
Stealing cause you can't afford what you need.
Waiting for tax season to catch up on bills.
Waiting for taxes to take your family out to dinner.
Sleeping on a park bench.
Trailer parks or ghettos.
No pets.
Goodwill for clothes.
No medicine or doctors.
Tooth pain and bad teeth.
Broke before payday.
No birthday parties.
No buying gifts.
Using grocery bags for trick or treating.
Halloween costumes from the closet.
No air conditioning in the summer, no heater in the winter.
Asking for help with everything.
No 401k or retirement plan.
No auto insurance.
10 yr old car or no car.
No money, credit, or assets to help your dreams.
Bad credit or no credit.
State health insurance.
Pay by the week rentals.
Higher finance rates and longer payoff terms.
Never having what you want.
New definitions to needs and luxury.
Having to give up your kids.
Marriage falls apart.
An early grave.
Poor is beyond the imagination of anyone that hasn't lived it.
Tuesday, September 10, 2013
Letter to Ridley School District regarding iPad
Here is a copy of the letter I plan on sending to my daughter's school office and the superintendent's office. Let me know what you think, and feel free to copy and use my letter for your own use just sub your child's name for mine.
To whom it may concern:
In regards to the Ridley School
District distribution of iPads to all students. This is a formal
withdrawal from the iPad Rental program.
I do not wish my child, Lila (insert school, teacher, and grade), to borrow an iPad
for home use, nor use one inside her classrooms. I will not allow
her to accept responsibility for a device that does not belong to her
nor a device that costs more than my weekly paycheck. I neither have
the resources nor the desire to take responsibility for anything that
does not belong to me or my child. I will NOT sign a hold harmless
agreement, I will NOT hold harmless Ridley School district or (her school) from any personal injury due to my child because some
unrelated individuals think she may have an iPad in her bag.
If (her school), any teacher, or Ridley
School district allows my child to touch, use, or borrow an iPad that
does not belong to her or me it will be with the understanding that
the person allowing my child to do so is being held responsible,
since this is against parental wishes.
On a side note: I do own an iPad that
Lila may borrow for homework at home under my direct supervision.
Any assignment that requires technology use needs to be sent home and
I will supervise her use of my personal iPad. I believe Lila is too
young for free range, unsupervised use of an iPad which is why we
bought her a Nabi instead of an iPad months ago under a Best Buy
associates recommendation. She may bring, and has, her Nabi to school
and use that. It is a kid-friendly alternative to the Apple iPad.
If you have any questions feel free to
contact me
My name
Phone Number
email address
Monday, September 9, 2013
Ridley School District Ipads
So, Ridley School District has taken it upon themselves to say children as young as kindergarten are responsible enough to take care properly of a $400 device, and plan on giving out an IPad to every Ridley student on September 20th, 2013. If you expect a pretty note about the benefits on mobile technology learning or internet, you have come to the wrong place. I am so vehemently against this that I can barely express it. Which is why it has taken me so long to get around to writing about it. Lets start with the pros, shall we, its a much shorter list. Ridley themselves only list 8 pros. Here is their list:
1. iPads represent a new “space” in technology: This space is between the mobile space (phones and iPods)
and the portable space (laptops and netbooks). This “space” is expanding everyday.
2. Personalize learning: it is widely recognized the 1 to 28 one-way knowledge-transfer model is fast
becoming redundant. As teachers and lectures begin to create new ways of tackling this issue, the iPad
could play a useful role in this transformation.
3. Low maintenance: the iPad needs little if any maintenance and installing “apps” is simple, quick, and
easy – there is less need for technical support.
4. It’s a blank canvas; the iPad is a tactile and engaging handheld device which could transform the way
young people learn
5. Instant-on and all day battery: it’s possible to get on the internet instantly.
6. Auto-save: Apps on the iPad save automatically. No more excuses like “I forgot to save my homework!”
7. Contextual Learning: the iPad is an “anywhere anytime” learning device. This makes it ideal for projects
and learning which take place out of the classroom.
8. Personal Learning Studio: the iPad can be a science lab, literacy tool, research station, history archive,
language lab, art canvas, video editing suite, games console, and library.
I have to admit I love my Ipad. It goes everywhere I go. I also teach preschool children. 3 to 5 yrs old. I do use my Ipad with my prek children, but I never allow them to pick it up and they stand right next to me the whole time. They love it and consider it a treat. There are some really great apps for their age and helps reinforce what I teach in a new and fun way.
Ok, now with the cons, and yes that is the only pros to kids having an Ipad for learning.
First, lets say each child will always act responsibly and carefully, you still can have the x-factor of life. Not all of our richie, rich Ridley students are middle class as some might wish to think. Some of these students actually qualify for free lunch, and foodstamps. These children walk home from school, or their parents walk with them. What about if its raining? Snowing? What if it is just wet outside and a car splashes a child walking. How about slipping or falling down? And what about those kids who go from school to after school activites such as baseball, football, soccer, or another activity. Do those kids leave their bookbags in their lockers? Oh right, Ridley doesn't give lockers until 8th grade. So they are carrying those Ipads onto a field of active children. Maybe they put them on a bench, under the bench, in the dirt, mud? What do they care, its not like the Ipads are theirs.
What about those kids who walk home by themselves. They could be a target for thieves. Don't tell me just cause someone steals that they are not intelligent! Ridley is going to make a green shirt a sign for any thief. My 9yr old might as well by wearing a sign that says, "I am 9 yrs old and can't fight back. Ive got a $400 Ipad in my bag, go ahead, take it." Do you really think thieves don't know how to take a tracker off an Ipad?? You are only making our children targets. What do you think will happen to the kid who doesn't take one home and gets accosted by a thief? Who hasn't heard stories of would-be thieves beating the crap out of someone who didn't have what they wanted. Do you think they wouldn't do that to a child? Now how about a 16 yr old girl? What do you think they will get?
Oh yes, my mind goes there. Anyone who knows me knows I have an extremely paranoid mind, if anything can go wrong for a situation, I will see it.
Lets talk about those children who go from school to an after-care facility. So Ridley believes if anything happens at an after care facility, that facility's insurance will pay for the Ipad. Well, folks Ridley is WRONG! I work in an after care facility, One my parents called every after care facility in the area and all say they will NOT be responsible for any IPads. How does Ridley expect an after care facility to keep track of 30+ Ipads every single day. I see bookbags in the wrong place, hanging open, thrown whereever. I have seen what some of these young kids do with their kindles, and ds' One kid left their backpack open lying on the floor in the middle of the hall with their kindle directly on top. Just waiting for any child to run down the hall and step on it. How many DS' and kindles have we found and returned? Too many to count. And lets say the children all have their Ipads out, they are doing their homework and oh! Internet bandwidth is exceeded and crashes? Yeah, and what about the child who takes a peek at the internet password and connects with his personal device. Maybe a young child then sees his inappropriate content. (yeah, that hasn't happened yet)
What about the special needs child? The children with ADHD or anger issues? It already is the first defense for doctors to medicate children too young to say anything different. I have my own issues with man-made medication and the too young brain but I will digress for now, this is about the Ipads. Not all children with issues take medication and not all medication works all the time. I have a five year old that picks up chairs and throws them, what if the next time its someone's Ipad? And, what is with this new way to access the internet? They will not be able to access facebook or twitter but yes to YouTube! Tell me there is no way for my 9 yr old to see naked videos. Tell me she can't see any snuff films? How about video game walk throughs for violent games? Yeah, ok.
Here is a place my paranoid mind goes. Doesn't the Ipad have a webcam? Ridley says they will not activate it but how do we really know they are not watching?? What about for that matter, child predators that may be have to hack into the Ipad via the internet and watch your child? Take photos from the camera? Disgusted yet?
Here is my #1 reason for being against this. Ridley wants all students to have one but will not take responsibility in any way. They expect the parents to shoulder the responsibility burden, while the device still belongs to Ridley. Its like "here, you must stay in my house, follow my rules, pay the rent, fix anything you break, but its not yours it is still mine!" Would you say, "ok!"?? Yeah right, but Ridley expects that from each Ridley parent. The child MUST have an Ipad, the parent MUST pay a fee and take responsibility, Ridley MUST do nothing. I dropped my own IPad several times and cracked it twice just in the first year! What do you think a child will do? So it worked with the focus groups? Probably heavily monitored too. Kids break rules, kids test boundries. That is how they learn what is right and wrong is by making mistakes. There is no way to say this pretty, it is simply wrong. The problem is too many parents are all like, "oh, my child will need it to complete some homework that will be graded? Then I have to let them have it. And $30 to buy insurance against accidents? Ok, here's my $30." But unfortunately parents, the $30 doesn't protect much. And only the first incident. My family can't afford $30, $30 some weeks is enough to buy my family of four groceries for a week! Yes, last week without having to buy breakfast and lunch for my youngest I spent $33 and change for one week's groceries. So to me, $30 is ALOT!
Lets not forget about the 'hold harmless' agreement every parent will have to sign at Back to School night before their child can even use it in school. Can we all guess what that will say?
So to sum up, My kid NEEDS an iPad for homework which will be graded.
I am solely responsible for anything that happens to the iPad.
I will pay any fees that Ridley deems appropriate
I have NO guarantee my kid will be protected from inappropriate content.
The iPad belongs to Ridley and NOT my kid
I am sorry Ridley, that is too much responsibility for my child. I will not allow her to take responsibility for YOUR property.
Sincerly,
Angry Mom
1. iPads represent a new “space” in technology: This space is between the mobile space (phones and iPods)
and the portable space (laptops and netbooks). This “space” is expanding everyday.
2. Personalize learning: it is widely recognized the 1 to 28 one-way knowledge-transfer model is fast
becoming redundant. As teachers and lectures begin to create new ways of tackling this issue, the iPad
could play a useful role in this transformation.
3. Low maintenance: the iPad needs little if any maintenance and installing “apps” is simple, quick, and
easy – there is less need for technical support.
4. It’s a blank canvas; the iPad is a tactile and engaging handheld device which could transform the way
young people learn
5. Instant-on and all day battery: it’s possible to get on the internet instantly.
6. Auto-save: Apps on the iPad save automatically. No more excuses like “I forgot to save my homework!”
7. Contextual Learning: the iPad is an “anywhere anytime” learning device. This makes it ideal for projects
and learning which take place out of the classroom.
8. Personal Learning Studio: the iPad can be a science lab, literacy tool, research station, history archive,
language lab, art canvas, video editing suite, games console, and library.
I have to admit I love my Ipad. It goes everywhere I go. I also teach preschool children. 3 to 5 yrs old. I do use my Ipad with my prek children, but I never allow them to pick it up and they stand right next to me the whole time. They love it and consider it a treat. There are some really great apps for their age and helps reinforce what I teach in a new and fun way.
Ok, now with the cons, and yes that is the only pros to kids having an Ipad for learning.
First, lets say each child will always act responsibly and carefully, you still can have the x-factor of life. Not all of our richie, rich Ridley students are middle class as some might wish to think. Some of these students actually qualify for free lunch, and foodstamps. These children walk home from school, or their parents walk with them. What about if its raining? Snowing? What if it is just wet outside and a car splashes a child walking. How about slipping or falling down? And what about those kids who go from school to after school activites such as baseball, football, soccer, or another activity. Do those kids leave their bookbags in their lockers? Oh right, Ridley doesn't give lockers until 8th grade. So they are carrying those Ipads onto a field of active children. Maybe they put them on a bench, under the bench, in the dirt, mud? What do they care, its not like the Ipads are theirs.
What about those kids who walk home by themselves. They could be a target for thieves. Don't tell me just cause someone steals that they are not intelligent! Ridley is going to make a green shirt a sign for any thief. My 9yr old might as well by wearing a sign that says, "I am 9 yrs old and can't fight back. Ive got a $400 Ipad in my bag, go ahead, take it." Do you really think thieves don't know how to take a tracker off an Ipad?? You are only making our children targets. What do you think will happen to the kid who doesn't take one home and gets accosted by a thief? Who hasn't heard stories of would-be thieves beating the crap out of someone who didn't have what they wanted. Do you think they wouldn't do that to a child? Now how about a 16 yr old girl? What do you think they will get?
Oh yes, my mind goes there. Anyone who knows me knows I have an extremely paranoid mind, if anything can go wrong for a situation, I will see it.
Lets talk about those children who go from school to an after-care facility. So Ridley believes if anything happens at an after care facility, that facility's insurance will pay for the Ipad. Well, folks Ridley is WRONG! I work in an after care facility, One my parents called every after care facility in the area and all say they will NOT be responsible for any IPads. How does Ridley expect an after care facility to keep track of 30+ Ipads every single day. I see bookbags in the wrong place, hanging open, thrown whereever. I have seen what some of these young kids do with their kindles, and ds' One kid left their backpack open lying on the floor in the middle of the hall with their kindle directly on top. Just waiting for any child to run down the hall and step on it. How many DS' and kindles have we found and returned? Too many to count. And lets say the children all have their Ipads out, they are doing their homework and oh! Internet bandwidth is exceeded and crashes? Yeah, and what about the child who takes a peek at the internet password and connects with his personal device. Maybe a young child then sees his inappropriate content. (yeah, that hasn't happened yet)
What about the special needs child? The children with ADHD or anger issues? It already is the first defense for doctors to medicate children too young to say anything different. I have my own issues with man-made medication and the too young brain but I will digress for now, this is about the Ipads. Not all children with issues take medication and not all medication works all the time. I have a five year old that picks up chairs and throws them, what if the next time its someone's Ipad? And, what is with this new way to access the internet? They will not be able to access facebook or twitter but yes to YouTube! Tell me there is no way for my 9 yr old to see naked videos. Tell me she can't see any snuff films? How about video game walk throughs for violent games? Yeah, ok.
Here is a place my paranoid mind goes. Doesn't the Ipad have a webcam? Ridley says they will not activate it but how do we really know they are not watching?? What about for that matter, child predators that may be have to hack into the Ipad via the internet and watch your child? Take photos from the camera? Disgusted yet?
Here is my #1 reason for being against this. Ridley wants all students to have one but will not take responsibility in any way. They expect the parents to shoulder the responsibility burden, while the device still belongs to Ridley. Its like "here, you must stay in my house, follow my rules, pay the rent, fix anything you break, but its not yours it is still mine!" Would you say, "ok!"?? Yeah right, but Ridley expects that from each Ridley parent. The child MUST have an Ipad, the parent MUST pay a fee and take responsibility, Ridley MUST do nothing. I dropped my own IPad several times and cracked it twice just in the first year! What do you think a child will do? So it worked with the focus groups? Probably heavily monitored too. Kids break rules, kids test boundries. That is how they learn what is right and wrong is by making mistakes. There is no way to say this pretty, it is simply wrong. The problem is too many parents are all like, "oh, my child will need it to complete some homework that will be graded? Then I have to let them have it. And $30 to buy insurance against accidents? Ok, here's my $30." But unfortunately parents, the $30 doesn't protect much. And only the first incident. My family can't afford $30, $30 some weeks is enough to buy my family of four groceries for a week! Yes, last week without having to buy breakfast and lunch for my youngest I spent $33 and change for one week's groceries. So to me, $30 is ALOT!
Lets not forget about the 'hold harmless' agreement every parent will have to sign at Back to School night before their child can even use it in school. Can we all guess what that will say?
So to sum up, My kid NEEDS an iPad for homework which will be graded.
I am solely responsible for anything that happens to the iPad.
I will pay any fees that Ridley deems appropriate
I have NO guarantee my kid will be protected from inappropriate content.
The iPad belongs to Ridley and NOT my kid
I am sorry Ridley, that is too much responsibility for my child. I will not allow her to take responsibility for YOUR property.
Sincerly,
Angry Mom
Tuesday, August 20, 2013
20 August 2013
Hello all, Its been about a month and I feel as though so much has happened. Each day brings me closer to my goal and I am super excited for that result. I still can not share my plan with you all but I can tell you the steps I have taken to reach that goal. My friend Arlene, hooked me up with Credit Karma.com so I can monitor my credit. It is heading me in the right direction to get that straightened out. I found a great origami tulip that looks so awesome when I make it that I plan on letting that be my first item for sale. I haven't figured out which platform I will use to sell my 'treasures' but will let you all know when I do. I keep stealing my Aunt's mail and any newspapers I can get, I am also dismantling the old magazines from my magazine hunt days for whole pages I can use to make and fold into baskets and flowers. LOL. Its ALOT of fun and super easy. I bought some 3 inch and 2 inch colored post it notes to make colorful tulips and flowers. I will post some later on. For some reason my phone is no longer auto uploading the pictures I take with my phone so my trash to treasure blog has been suffering. I have so much on my plate I don't always get to everything every day.
I found some new ways to make swagbucks and have bought the rest of my IPad parts. I have received my LCD screen, just waiting on my wifi cord and volume buttons to come in. Hopefully my IPad doctor can repair it this time.
Oh! I bought a domain! I am now at graphittienterprises.com I get one free page with my domain and it is only limited to four apps but its a start! I am excited about that. Right now its just another presence on the net but I think the first thing I will do with it is to make a store front on that domain. A store in which I sell all these little trinkets I make in my spare time. Selling prices will be pretty low considering I am NOT a professional, everything is handmade and looks like it, and its all (or mostly) made out of what others would throw away. I am super excited about this concept. Another idea I have is to upload onto that site my preschool program I designed. I am actually thinking of redesigning the letter book covers to make it my own. And adding letter books for the phonetic sounds I have in my curriculum.
I'm not sure I told you already but I monetized my youtube videos and there are a few vids of Lila and Raven on there. I can't monetize them all since some are with songs that are not mine on there. But those that I can are. There is also a vid or two of my nieces, a super cute video of my niece JuJu playing a kazoo and dancing. It is so funny, but the noise in my apt when I recorded it made it less funny with sound. I dunno, you can be the judge of that.
Well folks, I think Im all talked out for now. I will come back soon and let you in. And, as always hit the donate button. All monies go to buying my first home for my girls and I. Thanks!
I found some new ways to make swagbucks and have bought the rest of my IPad parts. I have received my LCD screen, just waiting on my wifi cord and volume buttons to come in. Hopefully my IPad doctor can repair it this time.
Oh! I bought a domain! I am now at graphittienterprises.com I get one free page with my domain and it is only limited to four apps but its a start! I am excited about that. Right now its just another presence on the net but I think the first thing I will do with it is to make a store front on that domain. A store in which I sell all these little trinkets I make in my spare time. Selling prices will be pretty low considering I am NOT a professional, everything is handmade and looks like it, and its all (or mostly) made out of what others would throw away. I am super excited about this concept. Another idea I have is to upload onto that site my preschool program I designed. I am actually thinking of redesigning the letter book covers to make it my own. And adding letter books for the phonetic sounds I have in my curriculum.
I'm not sure I told you already but I monetized my youtube videos and there are a few vids of Lila and Raven on there. I can't monetize them all since some are with songs that are not mine on there. But those that I can are. There is also a vid or two of my nieces, a super cute video of my niece JuJu playing a kazoo and dancing. It is so funny, but the noise in my apt when I recorded it made it less funny with sound. I dunno, you can be the judge of that.
Well folks, I think Im all talked out for now. I will come back soon and let you in. And, as always hit the donate button. All monies go to buying my first home for my girls and I. Thanks!
Thursday, June 27, 2013
27 June 2013
Sitting here at work thinking back on my days... We tried to repair the screen to my IPad, I spent my mechanical Turk earnings to purchase the supplies on amazon.com but once the touchscreen was removed a extremely small crack in the LCD screen grew. In the process of removing the touchscreen the WiFi cable and buttons cable got sliced. So now I need a new LCD screen, buttons cable, and WiFi cable. I might need a new back but i think I may survive without a new one.
I have a GREAT idea for a food truck and am working on a business plan for it. I have two avenues for getting a truck, one is to get a loan, which with my credit will never actually happen, or two - create a Kickstarter or similar account to raise money. I first need to create the business plan in order to know how much money I need to start it. The problem I face right now is I am unsure as to my food truck needs. Some things I know but alot I don't. I know nothing really of food trucks, what the are equipped with and size is not something I can visualize easily so I don't know how big of a truck I need. I know what type of food I need and should probably start there.
I heard from one of my besties, Arlene. We talked for like 2 hours, it was really great to hear from her. Hopefully it wont be as long before hearing from her again. She got me hooked up with CreditKarma for free and i am gonna work on my credit to get it cleaned up.
Im thinking of applying to some preschool teacher or kindergarten teacher positions in or near Orlando so I can go back home. With my Bachelors in Science and my 2 years of teaching this program I created I could do it. The reality and feasibility of this choice is freaking me a bit. Not sure if I am ready for that kind of change in my life right now no matter how badly I want it. Maybe I will wait it out one more year. I would really like to find a person to take over and help my Aunt the way I do, someone she can count on and can do my job also. Not sure if that person exists but I think that taking another year to find that person might be right, maybe I will be ready to move for the 2014 - 2015 school year. Another year of prek teaching experience wont hurt at all.
Raven is finally making friends and is gonna go out on her first girl (no adults) outing to the mall with her cousin Ellie, Ellie's friend Amanda, and Stevie (another friend of Ellie's who works at Developing Minds and is becoming friends with Raven too). Which is another reason I don't wanna pack up again in a few months. I want her to have some real friends, and uprooting her right now might not be good. I am sure she would understand and she would do it cause it meant going back to Sierra who she loves the most but she is finally being social and getting out in the world. Not so sure I wanna disrupt that. All this talking has made half a plan for me which just might be doable. I think its a great idea but not so sure I wanna share just now which means, subject change!
I am writing quite a bit on my book and have so much history created that will probably never be used I am contemplating a history novel. I imagine something like what Christopher Tolkien did for his father after his death being my daughter. Its all very cool and interesting to create a town/village from scratch, to make a history for the village and create generations, marriages, births and deaths. My charactors in part one of my book are the fifth generation of the village. The book takes place at the 75th anniversary of the village I created. 75yrs of history and four generations is NOT easy or simple. The hardest part, believe it or not, is working in death dates LOL. But I will get there. I love this book and I love these characters. It all flows so easily. It also has quite a bit of me in it and those that are around me.
One more thing before I head off to lunch, I found my Amiee's youtube channel. She posted a few videos of her talking to the camera. The first time I saw them I cried all day. I cried because sitting there watching her talk to the camera I could pretend she was talking to me, sharing her problems with me and sharing those things that she is passionate about. Those that know how precious that is or know how long I have been waiting for something like that will understand why it hit me so powerfully. I so wanna be a part of her life but until she wants the same I can do nothing but hope and pray.
I could go on and on talking to you about all that has gone on but I do need to get back to work and feed some kids for lunch. Love all of you, love where I am in my life right now and looking forward to changes I will be making in the coming months.
I have a GREAT idea for a food truck and am working on a business plan for it. I have two avenues for getting a truck, one is to get a loan, which with my credit will never actually happen, or two - create a Kickstarter or similar account to raise money. I first need to create the business plan in order to know how much money I need to start it. The problem I face right now is I am unsure as to my food truck needs. Some things I know but alot I don't. I know nothing really of food trucks, what the are equipped with and size is not something I can visualize easily so I don't know how big of a truck I need. I know what type of food I need and should probably start there.
I heard from one of my besties, Arlene. We talked for like 2 hours, it was really great to hear from her. Hopefully it wont be as long before hearing from her again. She got me hooked up with CreditKarma for free and i am gonna work on my credit to get it cleaned up.
Im thinking of applying to some preschool teacher or kindergarten teacher positions in or near Orlando so I can go back home. With my Bachelors in Science and my 2 years of teaching this program I created I could do it. The reality and feasibility of this choice is freaking me a bit. Not sure if I am ready for that kind of change in my life right now no matter how badly I want it. Maybe I will wait it out one more year. I would really like to find a person to take over and help my Aunt the way I do, someone she can count on and can do my job also. Not sure if that person exists but I think that taking another year to find that person might be right, maybe I will be ready to move for the 2014 - 2015 school year. Another year of prek teaching experience wont hurt at all.
Raven is finally making friends and is gonna go out on her first girl (no adults) outing to the mall with her cousin Ellie, Ellie's friend Amanda, and Stevie (another friend of Ellie's who works at Developing Minds and is becoming friends with Raven too). Which is another reason I don't wanna pack up again in a few months. I want her to have some real friends, and uprooting her right now might not be good. I am sure she would understand and she would do it cause it meant going back to Sierra who she loves the most but she is finally being social and getting out in the world. Not so sure I wanna disrupt that. All this talking has made half a plan for me which just might be doable. I think its a great idea but not so sure I wanna share just now which means, subject change!
I am writing quite a bit on my book and have so much history created that will probably never be used I am contemplating a history novel. I imagine something like what Christopher Tolkien did for his father after his death being my daughter. Its all very cool and interesting to create a town/village from scratch, to make a history for the village and create generations, marriages, births and deaths. My charactors in part one of my book are the fifth generation of the village. The book takes place at the 75th anniversary of the village I created. 75yrs of history and four generations is NOT easy or simple. The hardest part, believe it or not, is working in death dates LOL. But I will get there. I love this book and I love these characters. It all flows so easily. It also has quite a bit of me in it and those that are around me.
One more thing before I head off to lunch, I found my Amiee's youtube channel. She posted a few videos of her talking to the camera. The first time I saw them I cried all day. I cried because sitting there watching her talk to the camera I could pretend she was talking to me, sharing her problems with me and sharing those things that she is passionate about. Those that know how precious that is or know how long I have been waiting for something like that will understand why it hit me so powerfully. I so wanna be a part of her life but until she wants the same I can do nothing but hope and pray.
I could go on and on talking to you about all that has gone on but I do need to get back to work and feed some kids for lunch. Love all of you, love where I am in my life right now and looking forward to changes I will be making in the coming months.
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