Well, I am reminded today via my daughter about a loss I dealt with 15 years ago. oct 2 1996 one of my best friends died. She left two daughters, one only 18 months old. Remembering her today brought me almost to tears. Some years I am good at forgetting until it is too late to hurt. This time of year is always the hardest on me with all the losses I dealt with 15 years ago. Suzy had a special way of saying ‘hi’ that never failed to make me smile. I will never forget bonding with her over our mutual childhood tramas, or over the asinine bullshit of the ex guy we share. This world is definitely a little less bright since she left it. There is only one good thing that came from her death, and that is the birth of my daughter that would not have happened if she had lived.
When she first got sick, the doctors couldn’t even tell her what she had or what was wrong. It was later diagnosed with hepatitis a. She died from kidney failure before they could even get her on a transplant list. Her brother pulled the plug and that is only a small infraction on the list of things that man needs to answer for. This last day I saw her, she passed out while exiting the vehicle, we put her back in and drove to the hospital. I was so mad at her at the time because of HRS’ visit and the removal of my son from her home. But I held her hand and talked to her the whole time. I didn’t leave her until they made me and only after she opened her eyes. I was told later she had forgiven me for my anger and knew I loved her cause I was there when she woke up. I will not know the truth of that statement until we meet again in the next life, but she was never one to hold a grudge. She was too sweet.
Today Suzy, I remember you. I remember your light and your smile.
