4 Jul 2011

So, one of my longest and most beloved friendships has come to an end. I have cried my tears and am ready to talk. My exhusband, my bestfriend, a man I have traveled through many lifetimes together is now not talking to me. How do I explain this? His "girlfriend" is psycho. I put that in quotes cause he does not even really love her, he has said as much directly to me and through non-denials when I say it to him like that no matter what he tells others. He has allowed her to cut all ways of communication with him from me. I can not call her house, I am blocked from his wall unable to either see nor comment on his wall. He will not answer emails unless I am cussing and making him angry. This is no longer a friendship, he does not understand why I am upset about his behavior. He thinks his choices are his alone and only his to deal with. One daughter was pinned up against the wall by her throat by her, and his excuse is she was asking for a fight. Why? Cause she was protecting her dad from the abuse of this 'girlfriend'. My son is called a 'lazy F%$#' on facebook cause of his lack of finding a job and was ultimately thrown out of her house because of it, why? Cause she took him to find a job with street clothes on. I took him to one job in respectable clothes and he got it. She picks up my ex and throws him across the lawn through a lawn chair and into the hospital, why? Cause he said he doesnt want to be with her anymore. And now since his exes comment on his posts of ranting when he complains about her we have all been blocked. She apparently hacked his page, blocked all of us and he said, "ok, if that is what it takes to make you happy". Really? And I am the one who is being unreasonable? I am only the lastest in a long line of friends she has cut out of his life. The only ones who last are the ones who make friends with her. She doesnt like me because I refuse to be friends just because she is with my ex husband. Things do not work that way in my world. I am friends with those I actually like and can respect. I can not respect her for the harm she has caused. Anyone disagree with me??
I have been told I am being unreasonable, maybe I am but I am not wrong either. He deletes me from a group page just because he doesnt want our daughter (who is a member too) see how I talk to him or about him? That is a really lame reason, since she lives with me and has heard much worse that what I would write from me personally. I think his really reason is he doesnt want her to see him talk bad to me, or his hateful or useless excuses as to why he allows himself to be treated badly. He is behaving just like a battered housewife. Making excuses for the abuse. He needs an intervention but anyone who tries is kicked out of his life by her. How can we still be friends when there is no communication? Number one most important thing in any relationship is honesty, number two is communication. Without communication there is no relationship. The friendship is dead. I said my goodbyes. It was hard but I had to do it. While he cant or wont listen I cant talk. I have said that when he wants to repair the relationship I will be around.

25 June 2011

So, Another busy Saturday. Second meeting of the Shirley Slater Dia-Betters Foundation. It went well, typed up the meeting minutes and emailed to my Aunt. After the meeting I went shopping at Goodwill for some toddler toys for my kids. Elmo chicken dance toy, a whole bunch of fisher price little people, the alphabet caterpillar, a manipulative farm, six new wooden puzzles, a xylophone, and a couple others I cant remember right now. After we went to lunch at Wendy's and then dinner again at Bertucci's


Chicken Piccata
Fresh lemon, capers, white wine, Romano and fresh herbs atop tender breaded chicken filets over spaghetti. Served with a side Insalata or a cup of soup.

It was cooked well, but I really didn't like the lemon flavor on it. I enjoyed Eric's "Baked Tortellini & Chicken Gratinati (Tri-color cheese tortellini with chicken, cream, ricotta, mozzarella and Romano, brick oven-baked and sprinkled with diced plum tomatoes.)" much more than my own dinner and ate more of his than mine.

At home more school work and now to bed.

Thanks for listening!

12 June 2011

So, today has been a very lazy day. I started out with a soda, the end of one chip bag cause that is all I could reach from my chair. I only got up for bathroom breaks. I got the shakes around 3pm, after a ton of pretzels cause that was all I could reach, I ate two starburst candies and they shakes went away. I think it isfor sure that sugar first thing in the day probably kick starts my insulin maker and sends it into overdrive, and with nothing to break down, I start feeling hypoglycemic. Nothing I can do about it right now, maybe when I get back into my own place I can try Medicad again. Not sure if Pennsylvania will be more like Iowa or Florida on what they will cover.
Yesterday was a day to remember. The day that all my planning for the last six months finally came to and it was a blast! We had a rocky start since I had never planned a party nor threw one before. But it did smoothed out and I think everyone enjoyed themselves. Lila was upset about her hair but I thought it was gorgeous!


And of course my Aunt was surprised! Thank God she didn't suspect a thing. There was plenty of food as Eric was worried there wouldn't be. And the cupcakes I got from Pathmark were really good, Lila ate four of them, but since it was her party I let her. She got a bunch of presents that she was happy to get. Surrounded by her friends.


So after yesterday I figured I deserved a rest and refused to do anything constructive today and did not get out of my chair unless I had to. Eric cooked dinner, Steak and baked potato. Next week might see a new addition to my toddler room and noone will be allowed in starting Monday! So happy about that. I am also gonna try to get over to the apartment complex I am looking at to talk to them about an apartment. I might actually get a few grand from my school loans, hopefully that will help us get into an apartment.
Well, that is all for now. Please hit the donate button if you please. Thanks!!

9 June 2011

Hello!

Today is Lila's 7th birthday! Today school was cancelled due to excessive heat, can you believe that? Apparently the elementary schools have no air conditioning, hell, most of the buildings here in Pennsylvania don't have air conditioning! So, we started our day with an argument with Eric over the heat and breakfast, but after we all ate it got a little better. Lila showed a genuine compassionate side today. Eric bought ham, egg, and cheese hotpocket, and a sausage, egg, cheese hotpocket. Lila picked the sausage but when she learned I didnt like ham, she got upset and said I could have the sausage ones instead and when I refused she offered a compromise, one of each for both of us. She has never done that. She said today is a special day and she wanted to be nice today. That didn't really last long,but was sweet when it happened.
I spent most of the day on the second floor cleaning out the new room. Took me all day and just got all the clothes bagged up. My aunt moved around her third floor. After work, Lila decided Nifty Fifty's for her birthday dinner. We got burgers and fries all around. Then the restaurant sang Happy Birthday to Lila and gave her an ice cream. At home it was relax time, got my assignments for the week lined up, I know what I have to do there. Showed off the Snow White dress I got for Rowan. I got a cape with hood, rain poncho, bag/purse, backscratcher (which Raven loves), a fan, sports tape, and a new dress for Raven.
Well, that is all for today, talk at ya tomorrow peeps!!

5 June 2011

So, today has been a fun filled day. For lunch we had Burger King. Then I went to PathMark and got a Red Velvet Cake with an "Over the Hill too OLD to count" candle and surprised my Aunt Ginny with the cake and presents for her birthday which is TOMORROW! She is gonna be 50!


And since Lila, Raven and myself all got something we wanted this weekend, I decided to take Eric to the restaurant he has been wanting to go back to, Bertucci's.

I ordered the Rigatoni, Broccoli, Shrimp in Lemon Garlic sauce and two, yes I said two, Tiramisu Martini's





Eric ordered the "Taste of Bertucci's"



Raven had the Ultimate Pizza



The food was oh so good, and service was even better. So worth the price, even though we spent $91.85. And they even gave us cute little boxes for our leftovers.


Ending the day at home, snuggled in my little chair, watching Four Brothers and continuing my read of David Eddings "The Tamuli"

If I have entertained you or given some good advice, don't forget to donate to my cause. All proceeds go to buying a new home for me and my girls.

New computer and new phone. Toshiba Satellite and a sanyo innuendo. So far, I like them. Started my bachelors last week. Nearing end of week two of my first class. Getting ready to turn in my first team assignment. Been thinking about Dad and Amiee lately. Lots of funky dreams. I keep praying someday. I wonder what she is doing every day. Alicia hit like on a mutual friend's photo. I have to admit I looked at her page but there is nothing I can see. Sometimes I hate the privacy stuff on Facebook, but its good when I want to hide stuff. Domenic's birthday party is today over at Aunt Ginny's. Lila had a doctor appt yesterday and got a flu shot. Weird they have appts. on Saturdays but it was good, not that many people in the lobby. When to the book warehouse yesterday and got 8 books for just about $20. It was interesting. Gods am I hungry so gonna go. TTFN!!

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